Sunday, went to church in red as Gracie asked us to on Saturday,
but she turned up in maroon=,=', Today at cellgroup, we got lectured by
Gracie and and Azmi, at first, Truthfully, I was a little upset because sometimes
Azmi's and Gracie's heart weren't also in church, but after a while, I figured out
why they told us all those things, they were right, who laughs while worshiping
Christ? Who eats peanuts while praying? These are really not the right things to
do during cells or in services, and I really really felt bad, and I know Gracie is still
mad at us, I'll try my very best not to laugh in church, I am those type of people
who would basically laugh at anything, well, almost, Its a good thing that Azmi
asked us to pick worship IC, welfare/treasurer IC prayer IC, devotion IC, to make
duty rosters for the class, everyone will get a chance to do something well, I'm really sorry
God, Gracie and Azmi, as an individual, yeah, I maybe a Christian, but I'm not better
than the non-Christians, I'll be focused now, everytime when it comes to cellgroup,
after that, then i can play, I also hope that as a Class, we would be focused and all,
Because better is one day, in the Lord's house, a thousand else where, we all experienced
God during Youth camp, and we'd thought we would change for the better, but we had just
just realised that we're back at where we started, as a slacked class, and that wasn't
suppose to be happening, we were changed, but what made us change back to our normal
ways? and We shouldn't even have allowed this change, I call myself a Child a God, I tell people
about Christ, but the way I live as a Christian, I'm not even fit to be called a Child of God,
or for that matter, tell others about living their life for Christ, and I feel really guilty, I'll change back to the Alyssa who was changed after campFREE'08



&&As the sun fades away,
I'd reflect on today

3:52 AM
Up, up, and away!