I'M in L-O-V-E

2011-02-25T08:26:00.000-08:00

Blame it on the a-a-a-alcohol

Well, again, I take ages to blog,

but it's when I feel like blogging that I blog,

Well, a lot of things have happened,

I am still trying to talk to them,

And well, it has been better now .

My Birthday is around the corner,

Honestly, I am not really feeling happy.

Since the beginning of this absurd year,

Moody seems to be my fixed mood.

It is causing loads of harm to me.

I was about to blog a really long post

But for some reason, during the time of

these few short paragraphs, I lost inspiration.

So I'd end somewhere soon.

I downloaded these camera applications for ITOUCH

It is awesome, LOMO LOMO is the best camera app.

Lovvveeeeee it (: .Okay I shall stop here.

Bye bye

&&There's something wrong

But what is it ?

2010-05-05T06:21:00.000-07:00

No one understands my pain,
no one understands my sorrow,
I might be looking 항복해,
하지만, 내가 슬픈 오전 내부,
Please understand me,
Please, I'm going through so much,
I'm going through more struggles,
I just want to sing, stand on that
stage and sing, is that so much to
ask ?, I'm dying in the process,
I only have this talent, I only have
this dream, don't turn my fairytale
into a nightmare, don't turn my aspirations
to crushed dreams, I just want to do
what I love, not what I hate, 제발
, 난 노래 너무 좋아요, I only
want to live my dream, like everyone else.

2010-04-04T22:30:00.000-07:00

You're Pathetic

Seriously, enough of your ridiculous silly circus acts,
I'm not as naive as her, I'm not dumb like her, Yeah,
so She's now suddenly your best friend, so what ?!,
You guys are a pile of poop, yeah, this childish, but
I need to use this tactic to deal with you childish people,
You are at that age where you suppose to be maturing ,
but well, sadly, you are not, your state of mind is worse
than my 4 year old nephew's,

I'm supposed to talk my life so far, aren't I ?
But one small problem, I'm angry , so how
the nut am I supposed to be all Rainbows and
sunny days ?, Okay, I know, I'm just gonna put that
aside for now, well, at least my birthday was memorable,
I had fun and I hope everyone did too, and thank you
for the wonderful presents, and I really appreciate them,
Oh, I recently tore the ligament in my left knee, and
Surprisingly, loads and loads of people cared for me,
and Thank you all for the get well soon wishes ,
I really am appreciative of them, and Thanks
Rachel, Janis, Janice and Emilyn for the card
and the lovely flowers, you guys are true best
friends unlike a certain someone, anyway, I'm in need
of an study check, I need to focus more on my
studies, and My singing dream, I want it to come
through, I really want t leave this place and start
a fresh brand new life as a Singer, or in another
country, I really can't take any other blows,
Okay, I'mma go off now,

Thanks for making a fool,
You really, good.

2010-01-07T05:39:00.000-08:00

How long would it take you to realise
that I really love you ?

Today, school was fairly good,
I wouldn't say it was great
although sitting next to Ruyi,
and infront of TuJun and Justin,
is the best ever, they make classes
less boring with their ' cold ' jokes,
Anyway,
F&N, Ms Lily told us which class
we're gonna be separated into.
Either hers or Ms Thia, I actually
wished I wasn't in her class as she's
like a mad army commando, attire
must be tip-top, must be polite, I mean
I agree on the polite-ness, anyway,
Yeah, I got send to her class, well,
pretty happy, I've got Janis and Emi
with me and Ms Lily is a way better
teacher than Ms Thia, so so much better.

Maths, Oh, what can I say about this subject.
Well, basically, this year, I'm kinda 'forced'
to like this sbject as it is a must to pass it
EMB3, well, I'd rather studying like mad
and get good results then party like a rockstar
and fail like sucker, so I'm prepared to love this subject,
Well, Mr Ho is a good teacher, I'm really
starting to like this subject, and the topic
we're learning supposed to be dry and boring
but I'm getting it, which I'm really happy about.

Chinese, Zhang Lao Shi is really super cute,
I can understand, she is THE Chinese drama
TIC, so yeah, she's really dramatic, she kept
asking me if I understood what the passage
was asking, because copying the answers
down without knowing anything wouldn't be
effective but yeah, I admit, I could understand
the passage and where it was coming from,
so that's another thumbs up for me [:

Physics, Mr Tan always comes up with
funny and interesting ways to help us
with our phyiscs and it is always fun with
him in class, he's a super comedian,

English, Well, Pineapple is really well,
Nevermind, I don't really wanna talk
about it.

Anyway, we went to RP( Republic Polytechnic )
for their annual open house, our tour guides
were students from their school and they
were super adorkable and hot, the shorter
guy is handsome too, and he looks like a
female, but I talked to him, and he's really
adorkable, anyway, the open house was
really cool, they had music courses but I
needed a grade 4 in any music to apply
and since I don't even have a grade, I
was literally crushed, we were given a bag
with RP stuff and a teenage magazine which
I already got,

Do I really have to scream your name in order
for you to know that I love you ? I really like you
ever since that day you made me laugh so hard,
I was attracted by your charm, mesmerised by
your smile, captured by your personality, I don't
know why I can't give you up, my heart can't stop
I want it to stop, I know waiting for you is the
stupidest thing, I know you'd never fall for a girl
like me, I know I'm being retarded writing this here,
I'm just really in a whirl, lost, I'm waiting for the day
that you tell me that you love me too, will that day even happen ?

Always keep the Faith

2010-01-05T05:53:00.000-08:00

Press on,
Strive and be the best.

School, sigh, why do I even
bother about talking about it?
Although, today was a pretty
decent day, although, the stress
of N levels are already getting to
me, it really stinks, I can't imagine,
I'm already gonna have a test next
Tuesday, can you believe it ? Well,
Mid-Year Examinations will be in
May, that's almost 5 months away,
and N levels are 7-8 months away,
oh the horror ! , but it's true what they
say, why not just suffer now and enjoy
later ?

I mean I want my results to shoot up
all of a sudden, I do so want that,
and I know my mathematics has been
at the bottom, but I believe and hope
that I can at least get a B3, for now
N level criteria is EMB3, English, Maths
and 3 other subjects, and must be less
than 19 points, but even if I do get
those points, it'd be pointless, because
I want to be a Singer, non of the polytechnics
have music courses, only Nayang School of
fine arts and School of the Arts but those
are colleges, and the scores to get in are
almost impossible for me, but I believe
in God to help me,

Anyway, the dream is still sitting in
my head waiting to be fulfilled,
I hope it comes true soon,

Leaving it all to God
I believe in him.

I'm glad it all ended well

2010-01-04T05:21:00.000-08:00

No matter what you do,
Always keep the faith

I'm really happy about something,
Well, DBSK/TVXQ/TOHOSHINKI,
These boys will be smiling once again,
and Thank God these boys will be having
more concerts and hopefully, they'd come
to Singapore, DBSK made me realise,
that singing was what I wanted to do my
whole life, I mean I had that dream when
since I was little girl, I've done recordings in
studios as my dad's company host this children's
camp every year, so my dad usually asks my
brother and I to be sing in it, since then, I
knew singing was what I wanted to be,
but as the years went by, I changed what I
wanted to be, Interior Designer, Fashion
designer, but I never really tried to design
clothes, or make houses look fabulous, now do
I only realise that I just found it cool that they
could use a simple piece of cloth and make into
something wonderful.

And for Interior Designing, it's just a matter
of making your house stand out, but you
need to have that creative and artistic
talent, which I, don't really have, and even
when I was thinking of becoming a Designer,
I just kept singing, wherever I was, whatever
I was doing, the same goes for dancing, I've
only been to a beginner's hip hop class,
I've learnt the rest of the dance moves on
the computer, or just following DBSK's dance
moves for their songs, I mean It'd be great if
I was a singer, that's all I want to become, my
parent's say that it'd be hard work, but hey,
every job requires some ups and downs right ?
I mean, look at DBSK, they finally resolved
their problem, it doesn't matter what you do
or what you want to become in the future,
as long as you had the drive and do your best,
you'll sure be successful in your life, seeing
DBSK's fun, joyous, full of smiles characteristics,
is really nice, I mean for them to have a tough
schedule and still smile and have fun, is really
a good thing, I'm prepared for whatever situation
I'm gonna face when I become a singer, as long as
I'm one, nothing else matter, I'm praying everyday
now, that I'd be one, soon, very soon,

I hope I could realise this dream this year,
if it's possible, I admit, my voice can't really
reach super high notes, like the highest note,
but as long as I train, I know I can reach it,
Sorry about nagging about this, but this dream
is forever gonna be in my mind, Being a Singer,
is not about the fame, trying to be famous,
it's how much your songs and singing reaches
out to people and they want to hear it more,
I hope I can be those controversial singers,
and when I get my pay, even if it isn't much,
I want to help the poor and those families
suffering, I don't mind going to help them,
as long as I've help someone by helping
them pay for their school fees or upgrading
their school, I'd be contented, I used to
feel that everything I owned was not enough
but seeing those charity videos and those
stories about them, I can't help but scold myself
for being so greedy when other children around
the world are dying,

Alright, that's all for now, I'm going to post
about school tomorrow since today was a
total bore.

Dreaming, still dreaming,
I'm gonna live my dream soon,

Confused

2009-12-28T22:19:00.000-08:00

Confused, what should I do ?

Is it possible for us to have
so many things in common ?
It's weird that he and I have
so many things in common,
the only difference between
us is that I'm not really into
soccer, I'm more into frisbee
and basket ball, Is someone
trying to tell me that, we'll
really be together one day ?
So giving up on him would be
the worst thing on earth ?
But the fact is that if he likes
someone, he'd tell them straight,
He doesn't like to beat around
the bush and things like that.

I want to adopt a Maltese puppy
and I posted it on facebook,
He replied saying that he has one,
How coincidental is that ?
I don't know what it is,
Somehow whenever I feel
like giving up, he'd act nicer,
sweeter, funnier, he is already
nice, sweet, funny, but he
doubles it, how does he know
that I would want to give him
up when I only told one person
which is my best friend,

I need an answer, why is he
always like that ? Anyway,
as I get older, my dream of
becoming a Singer is closer,
I've composed a few songs
when I'm inspired by something,
but I wouldn't show you any
of my songs yet, hopefully
I can become a Singer, I really
want to be a Singer.

Dreaming about it isn't gonna help,
I need to take action.

2009-12-28T09:12:00.000-08:00

You'll know it's love
You'll just know it.

Hey everybody,
I'm finally back on the whole blogging thing,
I'm just bored now, having nothing to do, so
I decided that I should write down what I did
during the holidays. Don't worry this is just a
short summary, I don't like to type too much
nowadays.
Let's start of with November :

Throughout the first two weeks of November
was spent in school since I didn't do well for
my examinations, well, I had to pay the price
right ?, I blame myself for being so slack.
Anyway, yeah it was good to go back to school,
even during the holidays as I got to refresh
my brain and revise the topics and lessons
that I didn't understand, so it was a good
experience, and mid-November, I didn't
do much at all, well, doing my revision was
one, reading my Bible was another, those
two are the top priorities and I also had 3G outing
and Night Cycling with CG, End of November,
Church camp !, I learnt so much from that camp,
Pastor David was the most excellent speaker
I've ever heard in my life, he spoke about Jesus's
second coming which I had plenty questions about.
He basically answered almost every question
I had in my mind and he even spent time with us
teenagers, He really knows how to talk to us,
teenagers, I thank God for preachers like him,
He really did do wonders, but of course with
God's help, I was also really upset, I didn't get
to attend altar-call as I fell really sick, my face
was red, feverish, I can't smell food, see food or
watch people eating food, I'd feel like throwing
up.
I skipped dinner as my sickness was up,
I really thank God for my friends, YanYan,
YanYi, Shawn, Joel, Aaron, Claire, Jing Long,
they prayed for me after they came back from
the altar-call and I felt like crying, now I really
appreciate them more, they feel more like my
brothers and sisters than friends, we're so close,
I don't know how much closer we can get, so anyway,
I also recovered the next day, Thank God, I gave
them each a hug for praying for me, and yeah, I really
enjoyed the camp with them and learning about Jesus's
return.

So now on the December :
Well, to start off, frisbee trainings,
oh, I forgot to mention frisbee trainings
in the month of November but oh well,
here it is, trainings are always fun and
tiring, and Emilyn, Rachel and I went
to the gym often, we always talk about
stuff there after we're done, what can I
say ? After all, we're girls, we talked
about the most random stuff, and now
I'm currently liking this Asian band who
apparently is Asia's best boy band- 2008
and still going, DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki,
The members U-know Yunho, Hero Jaejoong,
Max Changmin, Micky Yoochun and Xiah
Junsu, they're the sweetest, funniest and
the best looking men I've ever seen in my
life, well, I'm not those kind of crazy fans,
I don't like those kind of fans too, when I
heard that the might break-up, I was shocked
but apparently the korean media ' experts'
made it up to get people talking, according
to DBSK/TVXQ and SM entertainment,
but I trust that they wouldn't break up
until they're too old to continue dancing
or sing, They're really close so definately
they'd never make a decision like that, but
now their only active in Japan as SM hasn't
done anything to their contract, I think.

Anyway, since Daddy and Mummy
are in the U.S now, I decided to throw
a party, Christmas party, since they
wouldn't be in town during Christmas,
I miss them terribly, it's fun to have your
parents overseas but it's depressing at
the same time, like having no more
money and Christmas without them,
but, freedom is the one thing that I love
about now, The christmas party as mentioned,
It was a blast, Thanks all who came, I'm not
gonna name you one by one as it's 17 people.
But thanks for coming, I had fun and by the time
it ended, I was feeling exhausted, I took a cab
home, and the rest of mid December was as usual,
the computer, I attended my frisbee team's Christmas
party, it was the bomb, literally, I had so much fun,
A lot A lot of fun, and it was the best, after the party,
I headed down to 79 and chatted with Matt, John,
Vera, YanYan and Yanyi, We laughed so hard as
Vera misheard the lyrics of a Japanese song, I've never
laughed like that in a long time, so on the way home
I thanked Vera a lot, cause I forgot how it feels like
to be that happy and laugh that much,

Anyway, that was my summarized holiday for you,
I know, I wrote a lot, but well, New Year's resolution:
1. Waking up on time for everything.
2. Being Studious.
3. Trying to become a Singer.
4. Learning my Japanese and Korean.

That's basically it for now, all those will be
on my mind throughout the next year,
No.3 would be on my mind the most,
It's practically on my mind everyday,
It's my dream to be a singer, I've always
wanted to be a Singer. I hope it comes
true.

Singing is my passion, So I have to make a good impression.

2009-11-05T17:31:00.000-08:00

All you need is love,
To sore above.

I'm back, Examinations are over.
Daddy and Mummy didn't like my
results, Well, I did horribly, I'll Miss
3G'09, and to all you guys I LOVE YOU
But for all those who are going to other
class, we'll still be friends,

2009-08-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

When you're 15,
somebody tells you they love you.

Blog has been dead for so long,
hahs, I have liked everything
so far, and my life has been
way better than before. which is
awesome

&&You never did fail me
and I like that

2009-06-30T08:45:00.000-07:00

When things don't go out,
what do you do ?

when life gives you lemons,
they tell you to make lemonade,
but where do you find the strength,
the strength to even reach out to take
that blender,

I'm not having the best year
I've been feeling down, most of the
time. You know what, I don't even feel like
writing this anymore.

&&It just seems outta place,
I need a life

2009-06-08T08:31:00.000-07:00

Bikinis, G-Strings, and Fabulous Makeovers ♥

Its crazy how girls get excited
from all these things, shoes,
bags, clothes, Prada, Jimmy Choos,
Since when did the world became
so materialistic ?

These few days have a bore and
I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED ON MY
HOMEWORK YET ! This sucks to the core
I feel like dying, all though, I'm really proud
of myself, I've forgotten my crush ! I finally
got over that feeling, I hope it don't return,
it'll probably scare him off lke :" EH ?! Its been
2 years and you still like me ? " Nah, I don't want
to do that, so thats it for now, BYE ! ;D

&& Lets just be friends,
its better this way :D

2009-05-29T06:08:00.000-07:00

Never would I thought a day,
that you blew my mind away

I'm not waiting anymore,
I may have said that i would,
but now I think I have been too
in love with you, and I have to let
it go, right now

Today is not a great day, and
i don't want to talk bout it,
Ms Tan wrote a letter for the
whole 3G and gave us cupcakes,
that was so sweet of her, I am
going to miss her a lot, she is way
better than Mr.Guo, anyway, the
police came over to our school today,
and now, they have a new set of rules
and if your under 16, basically everything
is illegal, like, smoking, Underage Sex,
etc, even Shisha and I know I'm never
gonna do these things, as its kinda
disgusting, and I don't wanna get arrested
Mr Owyong, gave a talk today, an actaully
he is not so bad character wise, he's
actually a nice principal. today, Zahiya
and I came to school with similar things,
our hands were bandaged, we carried the same
colour crumpler bag, i was pretty funny, hahs
Thats all for today.

&&I've been so emotional,
I don't even know myself anymore

2009-05-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

When you finally wake up,
then I'll forgive you

Its been far too long, i
can't really take it, I mean
I know I never really did tell
you. but isn't it obvious ? or
do you really need me to tell you
up front ?

Yesterday was a hilarious day, it
was windy for once in Singapore !
and Amalina wasn't wearing pants
under her skirt and the wind blowed
and she got upskirted ! and because
we were laughing cause we saw her
undies like 3 times, cause it flew up
3 times, i think, she went : " I feel so
molested ! " we were laughing so hard,
Ruyi, Emilyn, Evelynn and I, Ruyi was
trying to hold her laughter but failed,
It was so hilarious.

And as for today, I was really emotional
at the end of Chinese and I was holding
on to the curved ruler, the paper part,
and I accidentally whack Ruyi, on the
lips, it was so red, I'm so sorry ! I didn't
mean it, I just realised that I've been
injuring Ruyi, a lot, I think I should stop,
and today, my inner childish nature
released again on Ding Quan, my inner childish
nature is really childish, I must stop it
from coming out anyway, During either
Chinese or English, Ruyi just suddenly
said, " Evelynn butt very big leh" I was like
speechless, I think she was too bored
thats why she stated that point, and it
was so random, class today was pretty much
free periods from start to end of school, and
It was fun, But I was a 'guai' student today,
I did my work in class, anyway, thats it for now
I really don't know whar to do anymore,
I used to know, but now, I really don't,
giving up for me is kinda impossible as
you are too nice and you have a great personality,
i guess my heart knows that you're one in a
million and that It would take too long
to find another like you.

&& Now I know,
I need to let go

2009-05-10T02:42:00.000-07:00

I really believed that it was meant to be,
But I guess it is not,

I'm trying as hard as
I can too forget you.
I'd really rather be
your friend, so, I;m
trying,

2009-05-08T02:32:00.000-07:00

Let Time heal everything.
Thats the best way right now,

I really am shocked
that you are that guy
that I really did fall for,
but I guess its not meant to be,

I miss the children from Geylang Chinese
Methodist Kindergarten, especially Faith,
Aspen, Sum Wai, Glendon, Jason, and well,
Plenty more, and the teachers there were
really nice today, I wish that It didn't end
but, It had to end, It was only a week, How
I wished it last longer, I really do, Seeing the
Smile on their Faces, makes me happy, I just
really love children a lot, They really make you
forget every bad memory or sad memory you
have when you are playing with them, just too
cute, but Thankfully, we, Bridget, Rachel Ng
and I are going to help out with their annual
concert in october, and we get to see them again,
I really hope they still remember us, These children
really know how to make your day, even in the
toughest of times, making you laugh, and all, seeing
their faces, all horrible thoughts just fades away
and I enjoyed every bit of time I had with them,
and the teachers too, they were really funny, and
exciting, well, thats it for now.

&& While you enjoy the ride,
I dislike the ride.

2009-05-07T07:46:00.000-07:00

You know what, it doesn't matter anymore,
It really doesn't.

I may like you but you know
what, It doesn't matter anymore
to me if you don't want me, I'll
have to get over it sooner or later
anyway, so if you want me to tell
you, I'll tell you, because I'm not
afraid anymore.

I'm getting stronger as the
days go by, not physically,
but emotionally, Blabbering
on about your crush, ain't
gonna help the situation,
So I'm not gonna cry, I'm
just going to face, it anyways,
The Pre-Nursery and Nursery
kids at my mother's kindergarten
are super cute, I love them to
the core ;D, I actually would quit
school to work for them, but I
won't I have to go to school, maybe
I'll start a childcare center, I don't know,
I just really love children

&&Facing up to reality,
Its now or never

2009-05-06T06:30:00.000-07:00

Crying about not being a princess,
isn't gonna help at all.

I now only realise,
waiting and moping
isn't gonna get the guy,
I'm just gonna forget,
and probably just be crush-free for a while,
it will be hard, but, I have to.

I just wanna be your friend from
now on, I don't really bother about
you liking me honestly now, I've been
waitng 1 year and 5 months, I know I
rejected once, you probably don't have
a good impression of me, I think, and
maybe this is best when we are in a
friendship, I'd rather lose a crush then
lose a dear friend that made me laugh
most of the time, so yeah,

&& I guess if its not meant to be,
then Its not meant to be

2009-04-30T01:30:00.000-07:00

There are a million people in this world,
but in the end, it all comes down to one.

I really do like you a lot,
but telling you is another thing,
I'm not sure that I can hand this
kind of torture, and I'm really
upset with myself

Today was a boring day,
I'm not going to elaborate.
but today there was this bee
that attacked my class, and
every girl, almost was screaming
including me, I'm freaking scared
of them , I mean, i'd literally faint
on the spot, like today, my legs got
so wobbly that I fell down the stairs,
on my bum, it was super painful okay !
anyway, I'm extremely sad, it seems like
He's avoiding me, I mean, I think he read
my blog, I mean, I think so, and that is
not a good feeling, maybe I shouldn't
have been so straightforward, or put it here,
I should have just kept it to myself, and I'm
really sorry, I know I've embarrassed you,
and yeah,

&&This Hurts more than you think,
Its not easy to live this way,

2009-04-28T07:37:00.001-07:00

If Love falls from the sky,
I wonder which Love is mine.

Maybe Its not too late to
tell you how I feel about you,
probably that would make feel
better, I hope it does.

In class today, was kinda fun,
wouldn't elaborate, although today,
Ruyi got PWNED ! ;D, Marcus, In
chinese class was sitting one table
behind Ruyi, and he kept using
his legs and pushing it too Ruyi, and
Then She pushed it back, and so on,
Then Leon decided to Sit at that sit,
and Pushed Ruyi so front and Ruyi
thought Leon was Marcus, and she went
" Aa, aa ?" She so got totally PWNED !
Anyway, Janice, Janis and I kept teasing
her that she's a BFW, I wouldn't tell
you what is it here, anyway, I'm getting
Fatter by the day, I can tell, I want
to slim down ! The fats only go to my
stomach, I need to burn it off ! and eat
healthy and less too ! About my Crush
problem, I beginning to think that I'm
too like naggy about this situation,

I guess I am naturally that way ? when
it comes to love ? I should think about I
say before I shoot it outta my mouth,
If not someone could get hurt, I gotta
know when to zip nowadays, I mean, I'm
not a straightforward person, I just don't
think about what I'm gonna say,
dear my love, when would you ever notice me ?
I've been waiting in silence for a long time, giving
you hints and signs, aren't these obvious enough ?
I'm too scared to tell you face front, I'm a shy girl,
Like you said, you don't really like them, I mean,
I can try, but I'm afraid that before I say anything,
I'll blow, or ran, which is possible, so my dear love,
would you accept me if I told you that I like you ?
JLXH, would you ?

&&I hope I'm making the right desicion,
to tell you how I feel

2009-04-25T07:14:00.000-07:00

The sky is only blue,
when i think of you

♥

When I lie down on green
pastures, and stare at the
sky, I think of you, when
I think of you, the sky is
blue, the loveliest blue,
you can ever imagine.

♥

Today was a fun day, as usual
The weekend is almost ending !
Time flies even faster this time
round, and I kinda don't want
that too happen, that means,
fun moments, they'll be gone in
just a blink of an eye, and I really
hate that, anyway, at church, today
the pastor's story really touched my
heart deeply, He was almost killed
twice by his father because He insisted
to be a Christian even though he's malay,
and actually God saved him from being
killed by his father, TWICE ! Which
was pretty amazing, I must say,

and I start to wonder, I came from a
Christian Family, 3rd generation, I
think, and there is nothing stopping me
from being a Christian, and yet, I don't
cherish that, People like this Pastor,
they had to fight their way, because of
what their parents believe, and yet,
here I am, from a completely Christian
family and not taking chances, I mean
my family is the complete opposite of
this pastor's life, my father would "kill"
me if I didn't read the bible. or go to church
so does my church cell group leader, and
now, I've realised what a horrible Christian
I am, I need to change, to a better person.

&& Maybe what was said is true,
That I'm not right for you

2009-04-24T02:45:00.000-07:00

If only Cupid was real,
probably our love problems would be over.

Cupid, shoot your love arrow,
but if your crush likes someone
else, the love triangle story would
be never ending, and thats a problem
everyone would have to face, so
maybe having Cupid may not be right.

Today I didn't go to school, well,
yesterday the flexibility challenge,
it probably went too much for me,
now I feel like an old grandmother,
Sitting on is painful, trying to get outta
bed is difficult, not to mention, i sleep
on the upper deck of my double-decker
so that means, I would have to get down,
I took 10 minutes this morning, argh,
It felt like crap, anyway, my crush problem
is about to end soon, because, I've decided
to tell him whether it would break me, or
make me, so I'm gonna be prepared, I just
realised that I eat when I'm upset, which
basically is not good ! anyway, thats it for today.

&& When everyone is happy,
You're the only one who'll feel down

2009-04-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

They say that crushes are easy to forget,
But why is it that I can't forget you ?

♥

They say that good things take time,
But really is that the true ? waiting for you
is like waiting for Singapore's temperature to
stop, and I can't take it anymore really, but my
heart just can't seem to stop loving you.

Today was yet another fun day, it was a

fun Thursday, usually, thursdays, i'd hate it
so so much, The day started with me feeling
so sleepy, but Lesean woke me up with his funny
and cute jokes of his, he was walking around like a
zombie, it was hilarious and also we wrote stuff on
his hand when he was sleeping, and when Ms Thio
woke him up was the funniest, he got up, open his eyes
and went back to sleep, then woke up again and slept
on Justin's shoulder then finally, woke up, saw the words
on his hand and suddenly his opened his eyes like he got
struck by some lighting and said : " Ms Thio, i want to
toilet ", after he came back, he went to the wrong class !
It was so funny, Ruyi and I laughed so hard that I almost
couldn't breathe !

Chinese, nothing too exciting happened,, PE,
I had to do my five stations, I passed everything
but standing broad jump, I don't understand, I used
to be good at it, my stomach muscles now ache too,
ooh and my leg muscles too, cause we did some flexibility
and I showed them some things and Ruyi was like :" You got
no bones arh ? " I mean I'm just naturally flexible I guess, after
that Ruyi and I skipped English Class, and it was fun, we
were playing with Marilyn, and after that was physics, and
nothing much happened there too and after that was local service
learning talk, I wasn't sent to any work-attachment yet ! ): I want
to go to the childcare centers or at least JobDB, Its a nice place.

So yeah thats all for today,

&& I'm screaming in pain inside,
but would you ever notice or know ?

2009-04-20T07:43:00.000-07:00

Don't try to change yourself for who people tell you to be, Change yourself by what God tells you to be.

Sometimes, Yes, its hard to try not to act like you care about what people tell that is imperfect, but basically, we were born in this imperfect world, No one's perfect, Well, only God is, You may get the things you want, life may go your way, but think again, does this good life last long without the help of God?

Should I tell him how I feel ? I know that
he likes someone else now, I mean many many
people have asked me to tell him upfront, but I'm not
that kinda of person, so anyway, Today, School was at its
ultimate BEST ! Mr Ow was giving us scenario's about our new
test coming up, to help us understand STALIN, well, I only think
he's one jealous monkey, and it was fun for a start, after that was
Recess, I sat with Ruyi, Claudia, Rachel, Joey and Zahiya, They are
fun people to be with, Today I brought 1 box of lackerol to school,
but History lesson, it was 3/4 gone =,=" Anyway, after Recess was
F&N and it was ultra fun, expect the fact Ms Ben gave us a worksheet
to do that made our hands and neck painful, Issac, Loysius, Ding Quan
kept acting like China/Hong Kong men, with that cute accent, it was so
funny, we laughed for like 15 minutes, anyway, after that was Break, and I
LOVE IT, we played Speed, and Mas was ultra CUTE, she didn't know
to play, so she started watching, after a few rounds, she some what understood
the game, so she helped me and Ruyi, like :" 2 ! , 3 ! , QUEEN !" it was hilarious,
So anyway, Physics, Ms Ong didn't come again ! Goodness, its been like,
3 weeks, I hope she isn't that sick, But I wouldn't mind that, at Physics,
Ruyi and I played this quiz, like your future quiz, and at the Marriage Sprouse,
it was the contacts in Ruyi's phone, so I added a few and tried my luck, that time
I got my crush's good friend and I lived in a HUGE manison, being a CIA
investigator, and the second time, i got my crush, but I live in a beautiful shack =,= "
and was a, Hmmm, I forgot that part, but I think these quizzes are BULLCRAP,
Although its fun and oh so funny, the whole time we were playing that game and also
a new thing called SQUEEZE IT, where you take pictures, and pull the person's face or body,
and you can wobble it ! , it was so funny, at English, no sorry, at lifeskills, was the
bomb, we played pass the message and oh my goodness, it was so painful, all the
whacking, pinching, but what fun, and also we didn't have english ! , hehe, Thats about it
for today, I don't have the Monday Blues anymore, I'm in love with it, Well, I was feeling
upset today until I stumbled upon a lame joke, but it was funny, :" People say nothing is impossible,
but I do nothing everyday" Lame isn't it, but it cheered me up a little, Going off to bed now.

They say that good things take time,
But why is it that it never seems to happen to me ?

2009-04-13T06:50:00.000-07:00

ALYSSA IS A ULTRA ULTRA HAPPY GIRL !

I'm as happy as a lady who just got her boyfriend,

2009-04-10T19:15:00.000-07:00

Do me a favor
Tell me what you think about me
Tell me how you want this to be
Go out on a limb and just dream

Paint a picture
Choose the colors extra wise
Especially what you put on my mind
Imagine what it be like to touch the sky, yay yeah

Whoa-oh
Your thoughts are gonna pick me up
Do you know
It's good to feel too much?

Oh, you've got my head in the clouds
Oh, you've got me thinking out loud
The more you dream about me, the more that I believe
That nothing's ever out of reach, so dream, dream, dream,

I love this song, its called Dream by Hannah Montana, i mean
Its exactly what I'm feeling, and its a cute song, I just am totally
in love with this song, This is only half of the song, ahahs,
off to watch a movie with Ruyi and Pearly soon, Hopefully with
Claudia too,

Your smile means everything to me,
So don't ever frown.

2009-04-08T05:21:00.000-07:00

HOHO ! HELLO EVERYBODY!
Today, class was fun, like every other day ,
I'm starting to love school now, seriously,
If you concentrate in class, time goes by faster,
if you don't, the time just goes slowly, also, if you
have fun, time goes by even faster, I love 3G, and the
people in it, probably, i few, i don't love but hey, theres
still like, Ruyi is my laughing buddy in class, every single
day without fail, we're gonna laugh about something for a
long time, and I mean LONG, Last few days of school was pretty
fun, expect for Mr.Lum, He said that my graph was HAIRY,
rawr, in what way does it look hairy, ! He's always trying to make
jokes so that we understand better, hahs, today, i had stomach pain,
so i signed out of school earlier, Today at Chemistry, Ms Thio told us
that we had to split, into two classes, 1-20 and 21-42, but it may not be
permanent, they may, do weak ones, and the okay ones, and I must say,
I'm shocked at myself, I'm actually doing good in Chemistry, in fact, it is
my best subject now, which i am happy, i never knew that i can be good at
science, my physic is quite good, not say there yet, but I'll try, Today, the whole
day, i was sms-ing, Jeremy, this guy who transferred schools, used to
be from my class, Yeah, and he is a fun person to talk to, hahs, okay, anyway,
today, I'm seemly happy, as I think i can ace my Chemistry test, expect
for one page that i did badly, the Chromatology one, I forgot everything about it,
and also why is water not a mixture but a compound, i only new one, I'm absolutely,
in love with puppies now, but anyway, thats it for now,

Sometimes, I can only be 1% of the real me,
Its hard because people want you to be what they want you to be.

2009-04-07T01:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI MEI !

Excellent ! now you are officially a decade old !
trying to make you sound old, hahs, ILOVEYOU
BABYSISTER!

2009-04-06T05:21:00.000-07:00

My life is good and bad right now,
I'm so loving my parents now,
Yesterday Mummy actually said that
for my sake, she's willing to quit her job and
go do part time, and also learning driving, so
that my sister and I can actually get to school on time,
and I got so touched, and she listed the things, she and daddy
did when we were younger thats why maybe, we became rebellious,
but c'mon, every child goes rebellious, well, almost, and said that
she was really sorry, and well, its probably true, I was the most pampered
one in the family, i mean before my sister could actually stand and talk,
and we are renovating the whole house, its about time though !,
we've been living in this place for like 10 years, and there is quite a bit
of problems in this house, but we'll fix it, get it cured, and also,
we have to do the house work now, but we'll hire a part-time maid for
washing clothes, not full-time, just a part-time, and we'll do the rest
ourselves, which, is kinda cool, anyway, now for the bad, seriously,
Whenever I tell myself, I have forgotten about _ _ _ _ _ _, totally,
then he would somehow, talk to me and like asked, if I'm free to chat,
and instantly, the feeling comes back, which sucks to the core, our names have
the same amount of letters, I'm the OBSESSIVE type, just the forgot and
un-forget type, which is fine, i'd rather that then the crazy in love type.
so just trying my extreme best, because I have to, if not, I would get hurt,
I mean if he likes me too, which may not may not happen, then maybe my life
would be better, we'd just be friends that like each other, i guess, but I'm fine

Grab a hold of my hand,
and never let it go

2009-03-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

I really do like you, but you wouldn't like me,
Maybe as a friend, but i think i just screwed that
friendship, and I'm really sorry, I guess I'm just too
naive, thinking that you would really like me if i keep
talking to you and showing you my personality that
you'll like it as, its really close to yours, but I guess I was
wrong and I just hope that you would forgive me, and being
friends is all that i need now, please stop avoiding me, Its hurting
me inside, well, i guess I should probably give you up ready,
I've waiting a long time, maybe its just time, I'm sorry for everything,
like disturbing your sleep, and making you come out to meet me,
and i really hope that you liked the musical that I was in and
you watched, kinda awkward seeing me dance from the front, yeah?
I'm just so glad you came for that one, Well, I guess I really still like you,
but giving up is hard, what should I do ? I'm not obsessed, I just like you,
Well, i just have to make a decision.

Charming and sweet,
picks me off my feet.

2009-03-26T03:13:00.000-07:00

Perth was awesome, but i'm not in the mood for reading it here,
I actually have a secret, I compose songs,
I wait for inspiration, and the words and tunes
would just appear in my head somehow, But i
would forget the songs after a few days, i think so far I've
composed like 6 songs already, but i only remember
one of them, which sucks, I iwsh I can be singer/pop-star
But, i don't have the face and the body to do that, its not that I'm THAT
fat, just not the average shape, which sickens me, I've been trying to lose
weight, but apparently, its not working out, My life now, is really weird, I'll
tell you some,

1.The Songs I compose never go out to anyone else ears as I'm too shy
2.I have to forget the person i love, although, i don't want,
3. My academic results suck like crap.

2009-03-13T07:09:00.000-07:00

ALYSSA LEONG is NOT happy today );<
This E-learning assignments are killing me
ALIVE!, I can't seem to concentrate, he was
really sweet to me today, Thanks !, Anyway,
Bye people, I'm going to Australia for 9 days,
Well, I would be online but i wouldn't be blogging,
I think E-Learning should be banished, but
I'm part of the MOE, so this isn't my decision to
make, so I'm just angry at E-Learning although
we're given 3 days of "holiday", But also, someone pissed
me off today ! But I'm not going to scold the
person, I'm trying to calm down, Well, my mood
is has perked up a little after typing out my ANGER,
I still can't seem to get him out of my head, Joel(African)
gave me a really good advise BUT its just not me, so
I'm not gonna ignore it, but wait and see if I still like
him next year, If i still do, I shall try the advise out,
but, i think i say it, I'll probably puke, Its just not,
Okay, I admit, I am shy, anyway, Its really weird that
a girl is asking. And Yeah, I'm not a straightforward kind
of person, so, not very fond of his advise, But I shall hold
my puke, and after i say it, I'll run away, far far away,
and puke, but if doesn't like me and if he was touched by
what i did and ask me the question, we still wouldn't be
happy, because, He doesn't like me, so I'll just say no for
that one, anyway, 3G is apparently is nice class, Amalina,
ShiMin,Evelynn,Janices,Ruyi,Emilyn,Diana,Mas, these
awesome people are really nice and others too
, well, I don't plan to go into any clique cause,
I'm not sure that we'll end up like
my last clique and my last clique ended with not a pretty
good ending because I decided to act like a bitch, and I'm
telling you, acting like a bitch wouldn't bring you happiness
or make people scared of you, and I just want to say, really
SORRY, to the people in my last clique, Misunderstandings
got in our way and I didn't realise that I was acting like a
bitch until the clique broke up, acting like a bitch is not fun
at all, Don't act like a bitch is my best advise, if there's anything
wrong, don't try to push the misunderstanding further, because,
you might lose some of your greatest friends that you never had
in your life, and I really miss those times, but Its all over now,
and I just intend to be a neutral person, so I think thats good,

&&I wished that never did happen
Because of that, things went hay-wire

2009-03-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO HAAAAAAAAPPPPPPYYYYYY~
Mummy told me that I'm getting her phone and her
phone is like super nice can ! Although, not the latest
but who cares ? As long as I think its nice, Its fine right ?
and I'm going to Perth in a few daysies ! ! ! ! ! ! !
I'm gonna miss S'pore, but going to Aussie is better.
There will be kangaroos and Kola bears and Wombats !
Whhooooooo I'm sooooo Happpppyyyy !

2009-03-08T05:29:00.000-07:00

Ps( We took 20 mins to wait for the guys to get out of the lift, and trust me, it was freaky)

2009-03-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

Today, i have the most spectacular
birthday party in my whole life !
I thank all you guys for coming, you
really made my day, and i appreciate
it a lot, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGLONG!
Sorry that i celebrated my birthday during
your birthday, but you came, and we sang a
song for you, So, forgive me yeah ? anyway,
We went to my house after church, watched
A Cinderella Story, and waited for the guys to come
as they wanted to get something for Jinglong, and
when they arrived, they continued to watch the movie,
only around 5-ish we went down to play, Frisbee/Soccer/
Volleyball/Basketball/Touch Rugby, and it was so much fun.
Although, my tooth bled from a frisbee hit, but thats fine,
After the games, the girls went up first, to realised after
5 mins that the boys got stuck in the lift !, and honestly,
that pissed me off a lot, but after that, I cooled down, and
we did the cutting of cake, and did a "find your prince and
princess" game on A Cinderella Story Special Feature, and
it was absolutely fun, Thanks Aaron, Vera, YanYan, Joel,
JingLong, YanYi, Mattathias, Shawn and Ruyi for coming to
my party, although there were a little people, but i was touched
by them, when they took their time out to even come to my
party, its the thought that counts, and thanks for the prezzies,
I LOVE THEM !

&&Friends do really make your day,
Thanks for everything

2009-03-07T04:41:00.000-08:00

2009-03-07T04:28:00.000-08:00

Oh my gosh, today was so much fun !
I had fun today, You know, 3G isn't that
bad a class, i'm starting to love it a lot,
Today, we had cleaning up of the classroom
and decorating it, only a few of us came,
Amalina, Diana, ShiMin, Evelynn, Natalia,
Ifraq, Taufik, Justin, Zulfaiz, Faiz, Haiqal,
and me, and i think we did a darn good job,
APPLAUSE ! =D, We did our classroom, from
BORING, to AWESOME ! and it was fun, we also
helped Mr . Rebbeck with his classroom as he didn't
ask his class to help, so we decided to help him,
I never felt so apart of a class before, I mean last year
too, but too many clicks here and there, In this class,
there is only 1 click, i think, if not, then there isn't any at all,
Which is what i LOVE about this class, But i still my xi shua shua
class )=, But now i love 3G, i know this class is gonna be great,
Alright let the pictures do the talking

&& You guys are the best
Thanks for everything

2009-03-03T06:13:00.000-08:00

Today, i 'm like feeling emotional(emo)
So i'll just type it here, You know, i just
watched the movie "a Cinderella story"
the one Hillary Duff starred in, and she
was this average girl living as a maid,
for her step-family, but she still got her
man in the end, but when i come to think
about it, even if i was that Cinderella girl,
I doubt guy would like me, Because although
she's a maid, at least she's pretty but I'm not,
and when i like a guy, the guy never seems to
like me, the guy would like my friends but it
is never me and I'm basically not mad or depressed
or even I'm not BOY-CRAZY, but its just so hard to
find a crush for me, i mean, in my whole 15 years of life,
I only had 3 crushes, for some girls, the can reach up
to like say, 10 already ? I only have 3, because its so
hard for me to forget a crush, and when i saw that Cinderella
movie, i was saying to myself :" that girl's never gonna
be me, I'll never find my Mr.Right, even if i found him,
he probably would like some other girl, my fairytale stories
are all about me for now, i 'm like this ugly princess who dreams
to be those pretty girls but never gets it, so basically, I'll
never find my one and only Mr.Right," I just keep getting crushes
but never date anyone because basically, i have no one
, I've lost all hope in my fairytale, all of it because
No matter how much i try, It won't come true,
Mr Right would always have someone else in
his heart, and never me, and I'm trying to accept
the fact that I should have never believed in fairy tales.

&&and too think that i like you,
I'd never would knew that you would change

2009-02-17T05:36:00.000-08:00

Here are the Birthdays for this month~!
February babies!

11th Feb
Haiqal! Happy birthday !
In your class for two years, keep
showing your retarded ways,(:

12th Feb!
MUMMY! Happy birthday !
Woah, you still look so young, hehe
I love you !

15th Feb !
Shawn ! Happy birthday Bro !
Although sometimes you are
irritating but you are like my friend
for so so so ultra long already, like
since 2000? I think, ahahs,

18th Feb!
Priscilla ! Happy birthday!
We used to hang out a lot
together and you are a really awesome
friend, have a great birthday! God bless you

19th Feb
Vanzino ! Happy Birthday !
You know we never really talked much
in church but anyways, Happy Birthday !

&&I guess I should just tell you the truth
That I really still like you

2009-02-16T06:11:00.001-08:00

Daddy God, I did something which I
should never have, its embarrassing,
so I shouldn't type it here, But I feel
so awful about it, its my choice I did
it, so i have to bare all consequences
by feeling this way, and God please
take away this horrible pain in my heart,
Yes, Its hard and horribly painful, as
not loving someone is much harder than
loving someone, they practically stay in your heart
for a long time, I wish I could tell him but,
Every time I try, I just like can't bring myself
to do it, I guess, Its probably that I'm scared of
rejection ? I know I'm suppose to be loving You Lord,
and I do, like very much, This guy you sent to me
that i love, he may not be handsome, or what nots,
But i do very much like him, Theres no exact reason,
When you love someone, you don't go for the looks or
anything, thats puppy love, when you love someone,
you feel something for them, its like a connection and
the feeling that you cannot explain, Daddy God, take away this
pain I pray, or give me the courage, at least to get it off my back,

&&God, thank you for everything,
In your freedom I will live

2009-02-16T05:00:00.000-08:00

Its true that when you are in love,
nothing seems to bother you at all,
most of the time but the person you
love,

2009-02-13T07:52:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day !
For all you singles out there,
I hope you find your Mr.Right,
For couples, You lovebirds have
a blast on this very special day(:

&&Do i really like you so much?
Why can't I just forget you?

2009-02-11T01:53:00.000-08:00

Its only beginning of the year,
and my life has gone upside down,
I'm being to think that all the rumors
that were spread about me, were not
from the particular person I thought it
was, That means that I misunderstood
her, I sincerely apologise, I really wonder
if the other girl actually treated me as a
friend in the first place, or she is friends
with me because her best friend is my
friend, In any case, I'm just mad MAD
MAD at her right now !

2009-02-09T05:22:00.000-08:00

"Just walk away and don't look back,
cause if my heart breaks its gonna hurt
so hurt"

"I fell in love with a boy, not just any boy,
A sweet,cute boy, he loves soccer, its like
his life, He's a little like me, but I know he'll
never be mine, although his heart isn't somewhere
else, but I know he'll be my good friend, someone I
can relate to, talk to."

Valentine's Day is coming really fast,
So would you be willing to be my Valentine?

&&I get tongue tied,
every time I talk to you.

2009-02-07T05:35:00.000-08:00

There are more photos, but I'm too lazy to upload(:

2009-02-07T05:23:00.000-08:00

Today was a good day, Finally a good day has arrived,
First in the morning, I went to ice skate with June, Jeremy,
Joel,June's Boyfriend and Yan Yi, It was a blast, i fell like 5 times,
I have a few cuts here and there, Because They kept scaring me,
but its quite hilarious, I kept laughing, after, Yan Yi and I headed for
WEST COAST PARK ! for SpikedNuts event ,we took a cab there as we were going to be late,as it was about to rain, we prayed for it to stop and it did !, Thank God,Alicia's Dog chased me around just now, and i was screaming, it was really funny,
playing Frisbee was a blast, my throwing is getting better :D, and we celebrated Linda's
birthday, and had sharing about Church SpikeNuts Events, after that, I thought Yan
yan some stuff and we were playing tossing, Mervin came as a paparazzi, but It
didn't bother me(:, anyway, after frisbee, Claire, Yan Yi, Yan Yan and I took
many pictures, that were crazy, yeap thats all for today, I want to thanks God for the
Goood day today(:

&&Oh Valentine,
Why did you have to make a couples day?

2009-02-06T03:35:00.000-08:00

"I just can't believe you're gone,
the memories, i'll hold yesterday in my heart,
All the broken dreams, take everything,
but they can never have yesterday"

I suddenly miss my grandma so so much,
Well, she passed away last year in September,
I didn't exactly cry for the first few days, until
my grandma's coffin was pushed into the flames
for cremation, I was crying like so badly, I didn't
really wanted to post this last year as I was like kinda
sad for a few months, I want to thank those who come
up and hugged me and comforted me, I felt so much better
and those who send their condolences via SMS, thanks so much,
I only felt this like recently after the death of CK Tang's eldest son,
His son is my dad's friend, and they have a big family like mine,
But a little bigger, and as I saw them all crying walking out with
the funeral preparing for the burial, I felt very like, horrible, I suddenly
thought of my grandmother and like I never really appreciated
her, actually without her scoldings and nagging, I would have been
a picky eater, spoilt child, I like really miss her but I know she's happy in heaven
and She is a believer of Christ, so I'm happy for her.

2009-02-04T06:03:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day is on the way,
still i have nothing left to say,
I've told everything I needed to,
so, would you be willing to be my
valentine?

Test, test, more test, ARGH! School is really
stressing me out, and this valentine's day one
is even worse ! I can't stand test but actually,
if there was no exams and its just test all the way,
I would love it to the core,

&&If I were to die at this very moment
would you miss me?

2009-01-30T06:32:00.000-08:00

Emo-ness is catching up on me,
I'm helping people get together
with who they love, trying to help
them out, making it work, but I
can't seem to make it work for myself,
Somehow, I like people for a very long
time and won't get tired, I'd love to help
to people who have problems, but I can't
never help myself, I mean, i do like him,
don't I?

&&Emo-ness is never a go feeling
someone tell me how to make it go away

2009-01-30T05:45:00.000-08:00

School has been ultra-duper-zuper-uper boring
with 2H'08 around, I mean, even though we didn't
really study in the beginning but at least we had fun
now after camp, we bonded and got really serious about
studies, I miss them so very much, 3G is a too quiet class.
I'm not saying that its a horrible class, I'm just too used to studying
in that environment, pluss, I don't know why I've been feeling so emo
these few days, Its like I'm living in a world on my own, I may
seem like myself, but actually I'm faking it, Oh daddy God, please
help me, I don't want to feel emo, It feels horrible, so terribly
horrible, I don't want to live this life !,
"How do i tell you how I feel when you are so chilled about it?
I'm scared, afraid, and I really am at a lost"

&&Maybe its best if i leave
I wish you a happy life ahead

2009-01-28T04:57:00.000-08:00

I say stop, Stop, STOP!,
STOP making me believe that
you still love me, its frustrating, I'm
trying to forget you, please stop
I'm not miserable being with you,
I just don't want it the way it was,
I'm seriously begging you

&&Honey, don't go breaking my heart,
I just mended it back

2009-01-26T08:25:00.000-08:00

Somehow, In love,
girls would always never get the guy
they want and guys most of the time would
get the girl that they want,ARGH!, why is love
so hard to find?!,In this world and in this life,
This is just how these things role, We're all
emo by nature, and sometimes, we feel like
dying inside, sometimes in our own daily prayer,
we'll still feel emotionally hurt inside but for a shorter
period of time as the Lord is taking the pain away,
But during that time, whether we like it or not, wild
thoughts in our head will start, thinking, and thinking
Being emotional by nature is not an option, its just the way
life is, we just gotta try to accept it and be cool for once.
I'm speaking from experience and pain.

&&Sorry,If I scared you,
I just wanted to make myself clear

2009-01-25T03:52:00.000-08:00

Sunday, went to church in red as Gracie asked us to on Saturday,
but she turned up in maroon=,=', Today at cellgroup, we got lectured by
Gracie and and Azmi, at first, Truthfully, I was a little upset because sometimes
Azmi's and Gracie's heart weren't also in church, but after a while, I figured out
why they told us all those things, they were right, who laughs while worshiping
Christ? Who eats peanuts while praying? These are really not the right things to
do during cells or in services, and I really really felt bad, and I know Gracie is still
mad at us, I'll try my very best not to laugh in church, I am those type of people
who would basically laugh at anything, well, almost, Its a good thing that Azmi
asked us to pick worship IC, welfare/treasurer IC prayer IC, devotion IC, to make
duty rosters for the class, everyone will get a chance to do something well, I'm really sorry
God, Gracie and Azmi, as an individual, yeah, I maybe a Christian, but I'm not better
than the non-Christians, I'll be focused now, everytime when it comes to cellgroup,
after that, then i can play, I also hope that as a Class, we would be focused and all,
Because better is one day, in the Lord's house, a thousand else where, we all experienced
God during Youth camp, and we'd thought we would change for the better, but we had just
just realised that we're back at where we started, as a slacked class, and that wasn't
suppose to be happening, we were changed, but what made us change back to our normal
ways? and We shouldn't even have allowed this change, I call myself a Child a God, I tell people
about Christ, but the way I live as a Christian, I'm not even fit to be called a Child of God,
or for that matter, tell others about living their life for Christ, and I feel really guilty, I'll change back to the Alyssa who was changed after campFREE'08

&&As the sun fades away,
I'd reflect on today

2009-01-19T22:21:00.000-08:00

Sick today, so I decided to blog, Nothing Much has happened.
Just that School is really horrible, I have tons and tons of
homework, Life is getting harder and harder, by the second,
Its really getting to me that by the time I want to get a job,
the requirements of the Job would be higher, like now, to be a
Kindergarten Teacher, its at least a degree, I think by the time
I'm old enough for a job, even the Road Sweepers, the qualifications
would be at least an 'A' level certificate, and an 'O' level certificate
could get you no where, I'm trying my hardest to study, but nothing seems
to be going in my head, its hard, really hard, I'm just trying to be calm and
pray that I can pass this year, with the Lord's help, I hope I can,
Daddy God, Help me please,I need to get pass this rough and tough road,

&&It doesn't matter if you don't like me,
I've just got used to it.

2009-01-16T17:09:00.000-08:00

Bar Chor Mee in Action!
TZC youngest hip hop dancers!:D

2009-01-16T17:01:00.000-08:00

Its going to be Chinese new year soon, time really flies,
I miss everything that happened in 2008, and I miss 2H'08,
the events I went through in 2008, are still stuck in my mind, I
really can't get it outta my head, School now, isn't as fun anymore,
The only reason why I am going is because of my friends and Future,
So much stress, this year, you HAVE to pass maths, and English, and
the other subjects must all add up to be 19 points, Argh! I barely got any
points last year, I'm in need to buck up, and fast, Here are my teachers for
this year,
English: Mr.Joseph Guo,
Maths:Mr.Jason Lum
Chinese:Ms Zeng Yan
Physics:Ms Joanna Ong
Chemistry:Mr Thio /Mr Firhad
History:Mr Steve Ow
F&N:Ms Teo/Ms Ben
And these teachers are good, I kinda like them,
Okay, signing off now,

&&You'll be the prince
and I'll be the princess

2009-01-12T01:37:00.000-08:00

Hello!
It has been 12 days of School, and I'm not really enjoying myself
expect the fact that classes are now shorter, they feel shorter,
I'm like, I don't know, the same as last year, talking loudly in class,
not very ladylike behavior in class, I'm not really like that outside in church,
Its strangely weird, Undignified!'09, it was great, the events that happened
so far, this year

2nd January: Start of School D:
10 January: Undignified! :D

He's still stuck in my head, this is going to be tough,
anyway, signing off now

i tried to let you go
But you kept capturing my heart

2008-12-31T20:05:00.000-08:00

Shall not post all pictures, too many, ahahs, by the way, all of us are now either
lobsters or black, sunburned, hahs, Pictures shall do the talking

2008-12-31T03:20:00.000-08:00

Hello! I'm back from the most awesome camp ever in Singapore!
CampFree! It was the best, I became a professional hugger :D
I kept hugging people, experiencing God was like the best,
I felt so Great, and Most probably change, everyone changed
after that session, Let me name a few people who changed,
YanYan, Vera, Aaron,Shawn,Jinglong, We've become like Godly
people, I just want to keep it that way, I don't want to go back
to the old Alyssa, I'm gonna love and trust God more now,
Day1
We arrived at Sentosa, Coasta Sands Resort, We were feeling
a little down as We wanted our camp to be in Malaysia,
We went to our praise and worship room to put our bags
down, By the way, I'm in the group called BA CHOR MEE!'
the best group ever, We went to the beach after that and played
the most grueling ice breakers I've ever played, but I had fun,
I can't remember the first game but I remember the toothpaste
game, in that game We had to pass toothpaste using the different
parts of our body, I got cheek, My face was burning after that, you can
never imagine, the last game we played was fun too, I can't remember the game
After all that, we went back, collected our keys, The first thing, Natalie, Yanyan,
Yan yi and I did was jump into the swimming pool, as it was sooo Hot, after that
we checked out room and it was so small, hahs, but We had our own toilet, after bath
and lunch, the boys came over to our room for lunch, we have bento packed lunch,
Which was actually not bad, we watched OKTO, and after lunch we had our first sermon
about most people were sleeping as we like soooo tired but I tried to stay awake,
After Sermon was dinner, again we went back to the room and eat, but dinner was
buffet, the guys, Shawn, Jinglong,Aaron came over too, I think, after dinner
was another sermon, this time most were awake and refreshed, the sermon passage
was quite awesome, I'm gald YanYan and Jinglong went up for healing at altarcall
After that, we had a surprise party for YanYan, as it was her birthday, We got busted
because of that but in the end managed to get her a cake and party!, we chatted
Jinglong did a like really funny thing, but I don't have the permission to post it
so, we got scolded by the hotel Manager, After that, the guys went back to their
bunk before that , we were asked by them to wake them up at 6am, so we can go
to the beach and play.

Day2
Aaron and Jinglong managed to wake up at 6, we invited Vera and Natalia
Along, Natalie was also sleeping, while playing at the beach, we saw this
black coloured big animal which looked like a lizard, from another small
island, it came from the sea, and we got so freaked out by the thing,
we went back at around 8.30 and had group devotion, After that was
breakfast which, I didn't eat, I only drank orange juice, Then It was sermon time
and yet again, we were somehow sleeping but paying attention, Then after that
was lunch, after that, we had games, CAPTAIN CHICKEN'S BALL! The most disgusting
and fun game to play, basically, the chicken is raw and uncooked, we played captain's
ball but using chicken, we ripped the chicken into half while playing, ahaha, when
you catch the chicken it feels, disgusting for awhile, after Chicken's ball, After that
freetime, dinner, sermon, altarcall, it was the most awesome thing, I felt like a
new person after the altarcall, we went to the beach after altarcall, uhm, ate maggie
first at the guys' Kampong hut, Vera, Natalia, Jinglong, YanYan, Yanyi, Shawn
Matthias, Aaron and I went to the beach,Aaron and I kept passing energy to each other,
the games we played, from Passing the ball, to volleyball, to Rugby to volleyball with gays, literally, they told us that,to basketball which I can play!:D and last but not least, Truth or Dare, after the guyscame back from buying our coffee, red bull, I had to do a chicken dance while walking around Aaron, which sucked, and everytime someone said a bad word, we'll go
:"what happened to your godly-ness? Altarcall,!?" We would look up to the sky
and go Sorry Lord, its not a joke! Its real, we were repenting, we played more basketball
We only went back to the resort at 6.30, and slept for awhile.

Last DayD:
Woke up and packed our bags, and did group devotion, after that
was breakfast, then amazing race! Fun, FUN, FUN! To cut the long
story short, WE CAME IN SECOND!:D BA CHOR MEE! We had big bash
I was bbqing, I had the best time ever In camp, thanks to YanYan, Yanyi,
Natalie, Jinglong,Vera, Natalia, Aaron, Matthias, Shawn, and MOST
importantly God the father,

2008-12-24T01:23:00.000-08:00

Am I crazy or Falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
I don't know how to live while loving you in the dark,
I'm trying to be happy everyday. I felt really happy
when i saw you that day,talking to you has been a joy,
I just don't know how long I can hold, I really just wanna be friends
thats all I ask, I don't dare ask for more, As long as he's my
friend, I'm contented, I'm just really tired, I'm just going to be
a happy happy girl everyday,

&& Why do I keep running from the truth?
All i ever think about is you

2008-12-21T00:51:00.001-08:00

TZC dancers, Clubbing scene

Yan Yi, Natalie,Xiaole and me!

The youngest dancers of TZC:D

2008-12-21T00:40:00.000-08:00

The Zebra Consequences musical was awesome!
Thanks Atiqah, Jeremy and Ming Keat for coming,
The dressing room we have was so awesome, It was
weird dancing with a bare-back outfit in front of people
I know, I was actually really nervous but when i got on
stage, I wasn't nervous at all, I know that this was all for God,
I had to do my best, It was nice seeing Jeremy,and old friend
again, He's hair grew so much! Hahs, anyway, Yesterday, the last
day of performance, The curtain calls, we were jumping on stage,
it was the best, I can't believe that its over already): But I'm looking
forward to the celebration and youth camp too! Not to mention Christmas!
Hahs,

&&Awesome-ness Of life
Brings joy to me everyday

2008-12-07T19:14:00.001-08:00

Pure candid shot! xp
awaiting instructions

Popping/locking
Hard Hard work XD
I'm strong
Gosh, the Zebra Consequences is only a week away!
I'd better get the dance moves perfect, I'm dancing in
my church musical, Learning the dance moves from day 1 has
been so memorable, especially when my best budds are there.
Learning popping/locking wasn't really as hard as I expected,
The body wave, was the move challenging for me, I did learn
it before but it looked like crap, but now, thank God that I
could perfect it, The whole dance is really awesome, my choreographer,
Serene is sort of a pro in hip hop, the dance moves are really cool,
And last Friday, During hip hop class, We learnt old school hip hop,
something called whacking, yeah, is was quite fun to learn, expect
that I hurt my knee, ankle and shoulder, can't wait for youth camp
too, Its gonna be awesome, and again, staying with my budds, Yan Yan
Yan Yi, and Natalie, Although its only 3 days, I bet its' gonna be packed
with fun, we were quite sad when it wasn't in Malaysia, because, the friend
bonding always starts on the bus trip to wherever the destination is, This
time its in Sentosa, which is a like 10 mins walk away from church, so there won't
be much bonding on the bus, but I know, we're gonna have loads and loads of fun,

&&Its' probably only all in my head,
I just have to try and think another way

2008-12-05T05:38:00.000-08:00

Why is it that when i start to give up, that
he comes back and talk to me, What should I do?
Life won't let it go my way, when i won't give up,
Its hurts, when i give up, Life won't let me. I'm
just so confused, Anyway, My church is having a
musical, And I'm dancing in it, and Now, my life
is so hectic, its' all for a good course.

&&Is it some way that you know my life?
I'm so confused

2008-11-30T08:29:00.000-08:00

Goodbye 2H'O8, I'll miss
those times with you guys around
Good luck with the new classes, I'm
actually qutie happy with my new class,
As, some of my sec 1 classmates are in it,
and some of 2H'08 classmates, the ones that
I usually talk too are in it, so it wouldn't be so
bad, there will be obviously new cliques, But
I hope there won't be any clique at all, just friends
HELLO 3G'09, I hope I'll have as much fun as
I had with 2H'08, although, I get bullied sometimes,
But I don't really care much about it. Yay! I've covered
the letters FGH, 1F'07,2H'08,3G'09 Success!, Okay, going off now.

&&Life doesn't go the way you want it to
You just have to adapt to it.

2008-11-27T00:30:00.000-08:00

I'm so pissed off and bored at home,
I tell myself that I've forgotten him
but somehow the world is against me
Forget it, Should I give in to another?
Or should I stick to one?

&&I hope life treats you kind
I wish you love too.

2008-11-27T00:27:00.000-08:00

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

&&Thats how i feel about you now
I may have done that wrong thing

2008-11-25T00:21:00.000-08:00

The holidays for me are like, really fun and really boring,
the boring part is that i have to go for stupid tuitions, the fun
part is that I'm learning dances, this holiday, I have to remember
3 types of choreography,which is fun, I love dancing and singing,
I'm also so proud of myself, I manage to forget about him, totally,
My life feels so carefree,and I love it, I actually rather us be friends
right now, anyway, i had JC( Jesus Christ) in the house dance, and
got a really bad blueblack, But it was worthwhile, the dance moves
maybe a little 80s, but its so fun to learn what the people in the 80s
did, today, I have dance practice for Church Musical, The last few
Musicals my church did was fantastic-o! The first Musical, I was only
9, I acted as a workaholic's little daughter, the next one i was 12. I was
a tambourine dancer. Now I'm hip hop dancer for the Musical, I love this
life so much, Thanks everyone for tagging, I've replied them all, The holidays
kinda suck too because I'm sick, having like a really bad cough and sore throat,
other than that, I'm okay, thats it for today:D

&&You don't have to be afraid of me now
I'd really rather be friends.

2008-11-20T23:47:00.000-08:00

Spotlight-Jennifer Hudson

Are you a man who loves
And cherishes
And cares for me?
Is that true? Is that true?
Is that true? yeah...
Are you a guard in a prison
Maximum security?
Is that true? Is that true?
Is that true? yea eh...
Do we stay home all the time
Cuz you want me to yourself?
Is that true? Is that true?
Is that true? yeah...
Or am I locked away
Out of fear that i'd find
Someone else
Is that true? Is that true?
yea eh...

Chorus:
Well, I don't like
Living under your spotlight
Just because you think
I might find somebody worthy
Oh, I don't like
Living under your spotlight
Baby, if you treat me right
You won't have to worry

is this a relationship
Fulfilling your needs
As well as mine
Is that true? Is that true?
Is that true? yeah...
Or is this just my sentence
Am I doing time?
Is that true? Is that true?
Is that true? yeah...
If this is love
Real, real love
Then I'm staying no doubt
Is that true? Is that true?
Is that true? yeah...
But if I'm just love prisoner
Then I'm busting out
Is that true? Is that true?
yeah...

(Chorus)

Oh, you oughta be
Ashamed of yourself
What the hell
Do you think you're doing?
Loving me, loving me
So wrong
Baby, all I do is try
To show you
That you're my
One and only guy
No matter
Who may come along
Open your eyes
Cuz baby, I don't lie

(Chorus 2x)

2008-11-10T21:50:00.000-08:00

Super angry! I can't believe the holidays are
becoming Studydays! I can't take it anymore,
I studied so hard for my examinations for nothing!
Yeah, I may not have the best score but at least
I mugged like crazy for the first time in my life,
and my parents want me to go for tuition 3
times a week, 3 different types, Its not like I'm
stupid!, Why stress me so much, I need my freedom after
school! they'll never understand! Yeah, Maybe in their
days, they had to study more but thats' last time,
I'm so freaking pissed off with them, When can they
realize that Tuition and I just don't mix, I keep telling
them, That i hate tuition, they say what, like as if i can study
by myself! I did, I improve on my exams! Its' not like i flunked
all of them! I don't even feel like going on, too angry!

&&I wished that I never knew you
so that now, I wouldn't be crying and suffering

2008-11-03T22:38:00.001-08:00

pure awesome picture
Today, woke up around 9, and was really tired,
I can't believe that i have dreamt of him 3 times,
the last dream was really crazy and weird, I mean,
why do i keep dreaming of him? its' really driving me
up the wall, I'm trying to forget him, but he appears,
in my dream, anyway, bought nail polish, and I'm not
girly, I just like medicures, I'm not a tomboy either,
Now, I'm really bored, so blogging, and my computer
is spoiled so using my mama's laptop, so I'm typing more
and typing really fast, I want to leave my house but no one
wants to go out, I want to work but my parents don't approve
of it,so started camwhoring just now, took a couple of cool pictures,
Nat, My bestfriend, 13 years and counting, is coming over for a
stayover this Sunday , can't wait, then i can camwhore with her and
have a really awesome time, Thats all for now, don't really know what
to say or write,

&&Do you have to torture me this way?
you do know that i like you, but you act ignorant.

2008-11-03T02:17:00.000-08:00

I am so angry until I forgot to post this,
In the last week, we had lnline skating,
like i posted before, I had fun with everybody,
the instructors are nice and funny, I really had
so much fun, I never had so much fun in my life,
I learnt how to do a slalum( don't know if i spelt it correctly)
the toto-roll, and many more, we played games like the bull
rush, dog and bone, the tunnel of doom, and dragon, the best
games ever, I really had fun, thanks everyone who went,
and the new friends i made, Inline skating has never been
so fun, Thanks instuctor Zack, Martin, Jeremy, Eugene, Darren,:D

2008-11-03T01:41:00.000-08:00

I'm really fustrated now, My parents want to me
go for 3 tuitions during the holidays, tell me, is that
called holidays?! Do they know the meaning of holidays?!
Its' where you relax NOT overwork yoursleves! Whats'
the point of having holidays if I have to study, yeah, I may
not have done very well during the previous exam but they
didn't have to take away my freedom from me, when can they
realise that Maths, Chinese and Science are the subjects that I
can never pass even with tuition, I know that next year, I have
to pass Maths, If not its' ITE for me, but I really can't study MATHS!
Chinese and Science, maybe i can pass those, But NEVER maths,
I've been failing Maths since Pri4, Before that Maths was always
boarder line passes, I'm not a Maths person even with good practice,
Well, the normal things like Add, subtract, Division, Mulitiplication, Yeah,
I could do those but not like or the other crazy topics, like proportion,
I really hate the holidays now. I'll be stressed out, and crying for all this
to stop,

2008-10-28T19:18:00.000-07:00

I really don't know whether to love you, kill you, or
hate you, You practically don't care, i guess, I still
don't know why you simply can't get out my head,
I've had enough, i really don't know why my head
says give up and my heart objects to it, I'm really
pissed off, I bet you practically wouldn't care, If I'm
making you angry, I'm sorry, Although, You're my type,
Theres' still one thing i hate about you, You forget like
a lot of things, I told you I like you before, I guess you forgot
I hate myself for loving you, Do you think its' so easy for me
to give up? It took me 3 years to give up my ex crush,
I don't wanna talk anymore, I really don't know what I'm
doing now, I know that you'll never like me but I still hurt myself
by liking you. Although, You'd always cheer me up no matter what,
so thank you, and send many smiles when you're hyper,

&&My heart longs of you
You mean everything to me

2008-10-28T02:27:00.000-07:00

Today, had in-line skating class in school, i just came back,
it was so hot today, i couldn't really stand it, I actually have
a little bit of heat rash, but now, its all gone, hahs, As i have
already learn skating before so i took the advance class,
only around 7 people were in advance class, we did some
cool stunts, our instructor's name is Zack, cool name, I really
enjoy my time at school, thats' it for today, I'm really tired,

&&I can't stop thinking about you,
I'm really emotionally down now

2008-10-26T20:31:00.000-07:00

CLASS 2H'08!islovedd
I can't believe 1 year has already passed, well. actually i can,
Our class are Air Talkers, hahs, we created a lot of stuffs, and i loved
them just the way they are. 2H'08 rocks I'll never forget the day
we won the BEST CLASS AWARD! at camp, and we had loads of fun
together.
2H wan sui!

&&I'm so confused,
and i doubt you even know

2008-10-24T19:41:00.000-07:00

I had so much fun yesterday, I watched HSM3 and I went for
Hip Hop class, It was so much fun and quite painful, But i enjoyed
it, HSM3 was such a nice show, i think the best so far, You should
wait till the end if you watch the show, there are bloopers which
are really funny, and the whole show was touching and hilarious,
I'm not gonna say anymore, or I'll be spoiling the show for everyone,
I don't feeling like blogging now, I may blog later,

&&I've never felt this way
but why do you hurt me over and over again?

2008-10-22T23:25:00.000-07:00

Today, i wasn't really keen in going to school, as today, there was
going to be a drill on i think chemical smoke machine attacks, where
we had to stay in our class rooms, and tape up all the windows and doors,
plus create a toilet in the classroom, I didn't really want to go, but in the end,
I actually had lots of fun doing the tapping up of windows, But kinda
hated the part where we had to be in the classroom without any ventilation,
It was so stuffy and dark, but Ruyi, Claudia and I manage to find something to
do, we played with our handphone and listened to music, we actually made some
small fans using papers,when it was all over, I was so relieved, and the air outside
the classroom was so cooling and after that I went home, and now at home, I'm
using the computer, I can't wait for tomorrow, I'll be watching HSM3 and after
that, it will be my hip hop dance lessons, I stopped for awhile, but now restarting
with beginner skills again, I forgot some basic steps so decided to take it again,
Anyway, HAPPY HOLIDAYS!;D

&&I guess its' time for me to give you up now,
as you don't even care that i exist.

2008-10-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

Today, I'm really really happy!, Today was meet the parents day!
I was super nervous at first, as our report books were also to be collected
I was afraid that i won't be about to get promoted, but i got promoted!
I'm super thankful to God right now, I'm so relieved but now, I have to
work harder, i have to pass my maths and Chinese, if not after
Sec4, I won't be able to get promoted to Sec5, I'll go straight to ITE,
Not that its' bad, but i want to work harder so that i would be able
to work as my dream job, so here are my scores,
English: 55/100
Maths:44/100
Chinese:43/100
Science:48/100
Literature:51/100
History:51/100
D&T:52/100
Promotion Status: PROMOTED TO SEC3 NORMAL(NA)!
I'm so happy!

&& True enough, You are the one
but why do i still doubt it?

2008-10-21T04:00:00.000-07:00

Today, was late for school, I didn't really want to go to
school today actually, But anyway, was at school, school
nowadays, has been pretty awesome, We don't get caught
or don't even get scolded for using our phones/PSP/MP3
and I'm actually really happy!, the teachers are also nicer
to us. i love life after exams, bow, I'm planning to work,
But, i don't know what to work as, its' hard to find a job when you're only 14, but I want to try and work, earn my own
money, don't have to ask my parents for money and just shop! for almost everything I want, I'll have to save some too
though, for future things, I just want my own carefree life
before school starts and I'll be studying till i probably
die, but i want to work, and learn new things, alrights, i
gotta go now,

&& Do i still think that it was meant to be?
or I'm just still stuck in a dream?

2008-10-19T00:58:00.000-07:00

Today, woke up early for church, wasn't feeling well,
Also, i was feeling really sad, I'm not going to tell you why,
So, i bought many many boxes of Lakerol sweets again,
At church, my buddies overslept! and the other buddy
when to another church, was super sad at first, but,
Other buddy cheered me up! A little bit, I'm not going
to say who, Played with baby Zeth again, He's really cute,
After Church, Mummy told me that i had to go home by myself
again, got super angry, played neopets for awhile, now really bored,
Unintentionally spammed Abram blog, maybe because, too many
things are on my mind right now, thats' why kept typing wrongly,
Someone please cheer me up! I can't stand it any longer D:

Relinkk please: http://an-infatuatedlove.blogspot.com

&&I do know that you're just an infatuation,
I just don't know why i still cling on

2008-10-17T03:50:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i woke up, I was feeling nervous about my results,
When i reached school, settled down, skipping this whole
grandmother stories, and come to the point, I passed my overall,
really happy! All though my marks are like crap, Because Studying
isn't my thing, But i passed! Thank God for that, so here are my results,
English:56.7/100
Maths:44.6/100
Chinese:46.7/100
Science:49.8/100
History:59/100
Literature:50.2/100
D&T:48.9/100
Overall score:50.9!
As you can see, I'm better in my language only, i better buck up for
next year, I can't fail my maths next year, or I'll straight away retain,
Its the end of the year and I'm already feeling stressed out, I just got
to be more serious in my studying, less electronics, i hope, Anyway,
I like Russell Peters Jokes, I know its' a little racist but I like it, Not
the racist part but the interpretation of the accents are so cute and hilarious,

&&Why do i still like you?
Haven't i given up?♥

2008-10-10T08:16:00.000-07:00

Yes! Finally, Exams are over, I'm free to do whatever i want,
Now, all I'm scared off is the results, I did badly for todays' paper
i had stomach ache, couldn't concentrate at all, but I'm glad that at
least i could do or even remember some things, Thank God, Its' pretty,
awesome that i could, Now, i'll be partying, and when my results are in,
I'll be weeping, But, Hopefully, I would be jumping for joy, i felt that i did ok,
in my exam, I'm just not totally confidant that I can pass everything,I just hope
that i would be retaining, or Go downhill, thats' all, will be psoting quite often
now, so okay, bye

2008-09-18T04:21:00.000-07:00

Clique gone forever, because i made a mistake, It was a hard
desicion to make but somehow, i'm glad we did made it, For now,
We're just classmates, Well, expect Claudia and Ruyi, I want no
more trouble anymore, even if everything's okay, i won't take
another step to clique, i don't want to hurt someone else anymore,
I would just keep my mouth shut and stop all this gossiping, try and
look at people's strength, not their weakness,Yes, they still could be my
very good friends, but i won't be in their clique, For now, Claudia and Ruyi
are my good friends, but we're not a clique, Just friends, I think people
should only form cliques if they really trust each other, if not then, whats
the point? Getting angry over little stuff, Misunderstandings, makes one feel
sad, but i guess this is how it should be, and how it should be dealt. I cherished
every moment with them, I won't forget all the fun games we had, Well, we're
still classmates right? At least we're not enemies. So I'm just thankful for that.

2008-09-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

These are some pictures of the time we had in school's field on founder's day,

we were really wacky and i actually took a video of my friends but i won't

post it hahs, exams are coming, stress is back, i just thank God for helping

me get better grades for last term, just hope i don't slack too much these few days,

blog will be a little dead for awhile, I really hope i don't get retained or kicked

out to another school, i gotta stop all this slacking, and get down to serious work.

2008-09-05T07:17:00.000-07:00

Hellos, Just came by to say, i won't be posting for awhile, not
until my exams are over, Studying like crazy,
my grandmother died this week, it kinda sadden me a little
bit, but, i'm alright now, Now, i 'm boredd like mad, max
study hours is only 2 hours, that sucks, gotta try to aim for
4 hours if not i'll sure fail my exams, Trying not to think about
him has been tough, Anyways, off to studying byes.

2008-08-19T02:52:00.001-07:00

Yeah! I finally passed my chinese tests,
I'm super happy,i guess studying really
pays off, i didn't know i could pass chinese
papers, i would usually panic or just put
stuff down, i think i can pass my exams,
all i have to do is to try, thats all i need,

2008-08-18T06:08:00.000-07:00

My pri 6 birthday party

Burger king madness at vivo
Emilyn,me,Rachel,Samantha

Neoprint wonder

We played soccer in skirts.

Neoprint craze

Neoprint madness

Neoprint Fun

Memories of my life, they blow me away, i remember

everthing that happened during that time of the year

when i see the pictures, i remember, there were not

many issues that we faced so much so that we hated each other,

i remember the fun we had, the pleasure of being together,

I love them so very much, i take back what i said, i really

love them, they always make me laugh, and we'll always

have loads of fun together, Clique is always still together

2008-08-02T02:17:00.000-07:00

I'm devoting my life to God now, so my
life is considered happy, there are still
many ups and downs and people still
talk about my rash and they insult me,
who cares? For i know, God only sees true inside
beauty,

2008-07-31T04:59:00.000-07:00

Only if you could read all those tags about you,
Yes, meeting you was fate, and falling in love was beyond my control,
I've been waiting,Probably, fate didn't want us to be together,
that's why you never liked me, well, i still can't give up,
i've never felt this way for a boy before, Maybe i should let go,
Maybe. Anyway, today in school ,everyone, almost in 2H was
emo, a lot of things happened recently and i don't know where to start,
shouldn't even say, thats all for now,

2008-07-20T04:57:00.001-07:00

My life now is much better, expect the boy part.
i think i'm too much in like with him,
but i'm still afraid to tell
you, It's not rejection, Its the fact that talking to a
guy who is my deepest darkest secret is scary,
and i'll feel like avoiding him, the red face thing,
But if i avoid him, i feel very bad, Right now, i just
want like him, Secretly.

2008-07-05T04:38:00.000-07:00

I should have known that you were lying,
I just don't want to talk about it,
I HATE YOU! You should know that
i hate liers the most! Why do you still
have to break my heart?! I never want to
hear from you!

2008-07-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

I realized that its not good to like somebody
for so long, it would be torturing, and now
i still like this guy, its been like 6 months now,
my last crush, 2 years, it was hard to forget him,
i saw him everyday, my current crush, well, he's
extremely cute. But the problem is he never liked
me, when you like someone, theres only a 1 percent
chance that the person would like you back, those people
are the blessed ones, unlike me, It's heart breaking,
You know most girls keep changing crushes but i stick
to one, you may call it crazy, but thats me, i don't know
why too, i know that the guy would never like me and
yet i like him for so long, i have asked a lot of people about
this stuff, they always say, when its time to let go, they would
but how come i can't do that? My situation, i live in a sad world,
i may look bubbly an happy and hyper and in actual fact, i'm
a very emo inside, i'm just showing my happy side, i don't want
others to feel sad too. Now, i don't know how or what i should do,
i'm in a mess, and i'm finally getting courage to write this. Because
this is kind of embarrasing, Alyssa, its time to let go.

Life's Hard

2008-06-27T06:50:00.000-07:00

I just realized that a girl's life is hard,
You don't usually get the boy you like,
You may have a boyfriend, but he isn't
the one you actually have more feelings
for, You may you say you love your
current boyfriend, but do you really mean
it? Maybe you do, but did you ever ask
yourself this question? do you actually
want to accept your current boyfriend?
or you're just trying to make the boy
jealous that you have a boyfriend?
And you will always get misunderstood
by your closest friends, they would wonder
why you have changed, or one of you're
closest friends like the guy you're with and
they know that you don't really like him,
which sucks, I've been down that road,
It was tragic, nobody talked to me, or
even was my friend, they thought i was
a flirt, a real flirt, and i never want to go
back down that road but somehow, i can't
i have been walking in that road for ages,
I can't seen to find the sign that says, FREE
FROM ALL TROUBLES, Its been a very long
while, i can't take it anymore, i just can't

2008-06-25T06:48:00.000-07:00

Its a never ending likeness,
never ending lie,
The hurt you've cut deeply,
can't be seen by the naked eye,
Just leave me alone for goodness
sake, I would fair better with a
jake, Its just a random name,
Never i want to see you,
Never i want to hear from you
again.

Hello,

2008-06-23T01:42:00.001-07:00

First day of school was stressful,
although, some of the new teachers
are really funny, why does school
even exist?
Argh, i don't want to talk about it,
RH, I'm Updating now!, Haha,
I'm excerising my fingers ok!,
Haha.

2008-06-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

He loves you?

I'm not too sure,

He likes you?

Oh, hmmm,

He would always
look in my direction,
would he seat next to
you when nobody's at
your seat in school?
Oh, Always.
Does he always message you
on either the handphone or MSN?
Oh, MSN always, Phone? Not really.
Is he the boy that wrote in your dairy?
Nope.
Does he get jealous when he sees you
with having fun another boy?
Uh, I'm not sure.

I got this from my friend, just felt like doing it.

SHANGRI-LAED WITH MY TWO ROCKING FRIENDS

2008-06-07T06:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i went to shangri-la hotel.
Ruyi invited me there, Pearly went too.
Well, claudia supposed to come but
in the end, her mother didn't allow her.
We were so sad that she couldn't make it,
I reached at the hotel first, It was awesome!
The lights were so cool, but i didn't know
how to contact Ruyi as my phone ran out
of money! So after 30 mins, i asked the
hotel staff, she brought me to the telephone
which the operater would pick up and i
would have to her Ruyi's surname and it
will be directed to the room, i got so scared
that it would be another person, but in the
end, Ruyi picked up the call, i was so relieved.
She picked me up from the lobby, we were
staying in room 715, I place my stuff down and
we chatted and chatted, after awhile, her mother
came and she was a ver nice lady. She's from
Taiwan, i think. Her mother asked us to walk
around the hotel rather sitting down in the
room and munching on tibits, So Ruyi showed
me around the hotel, i must say, they have such
lovely decorations. and nice place, we waited for
Pearly to come, we went back to the room and
Talked to Pearly on Ruyi's handphone, Soonafter,
Pearly arrived and talked about her story, why she
was late. Ruyi's brother came with his girlfriend,
her brother is so funny, his jokes. He fetched Ruyi
mum home first before bringing us out for dinner,
we had macdonald's for dinner, it was fun talking
to her brother and his girlfriend.we arrived back
at the hotel at around 9pm, we watched the channel
8 show, when it finished we were jumping on the bed
and taking pictures, we played eye lock too, using
pillows to cover our nose and mouths, we played pillow
fight and Ruyi's DS some yoshi game, And best of all,
we played hide and seek, we hid until there was no where
to hide, so we decided to watch the tv and we also chatted,
Pearly tried to sleep but failed, we slept at around, hmmm,
5.35? well, that was just Ruyi and i, Pearly left at 4.55, i woke
up at around 6.15, Ruyi was still sound asleep, the tv was still
on, i went to the toilet first and brushed my teeth, at around
6.50, Pearly called Ruyi's phone, i picked it up to not disturbe
Ruyi, She called to complain that her teacher didn't need her
go back to camp which was in school, It was so funny, i laughed
and was quite angry too, i could feel Pearly's anger, she didn't
sleep the whole night and she spent 18 dollars coming going
there and the day before she came, the teacher made her
do a very embarrasing punishment, but anyway, that's
how school works right?You can't complain about that fact.
But, you can actually complain about it, cause it's considered
as torturing, according to my mother, So, she came back to
the hotel and watched more tv with me and we took turns
to play Ruyi's DS, Ruyi was still sleeping, We accidentally
fell asleep, we only woke at around 12.15pm? Ruyi's brother
bought Horfun for us, then he fetched Ruyi and her mother
to Great world city for lunch and fetched Pearly and i to
church at Orchad, we had bad sense of direction so Ruyi's brother
got a little bit annoyed so he dropped us at some place near
OG, and we walked to cuppage shopping centre from there
we waited for evelynn there, we bought something at 7-eleven
to eat while waiting for her, when she arrived, we chatted until
Phoebe, Pearly's friend came, but, we left and went to cineleasure
to watch kungfu panda, we got NACHOS and this lady who knocked
on the side of nachos, made me drop the nachos, there goes our
money, i got really upset, but, it was good thing evelynn bought
strip cuttlefish, if not we would have nothing to eat in there,
But Pearly had sweets so, it was ok, kungfu panda was a nice
show, i loved it, it was all about confidance, perseverence and
learning how to fight our enemies, i loved it, we went home
after that, i would want to have this much fun again, and with
Ruyi, Pearly and Evelynn, if my others friends went, it would
be awesome! Thanks for all the fun, Pearly and Ruyi, and
Thanks Ruyi for inviting me to this hotel to had fun with you.
The pictures will come later when Pearly sends it to me.
BABY,ILOVEYOU

2008-06-03T02:20:00.000-07:00

Its the holidays!

But i'm so bored at home!):